Golden years that is just 2 words. That will not determine your life. You are still a kid. You are going to school right? You go there to study. Your parents send you there you there because you are supposed to study. If you doing that thing correctly then there is no need of any tension of wasting your life cus you are not. And you don't need to fix something that is not broken or gone bad. Sometimes enjoying your childhood can be hard but don't worry you have yourself more than you have anyone else.